When You Feel Hopeless On Your Healing Journey, Read This
This blog post is completely different than any post I’ve ever published here. There’s no advice, journal prompts, or “how to’s” in it. It’s more of a love letter to myself. It’s a declaration of peace, freedom, and badassery. It’s a celebration of how far I’ve come. It’s a huge “Hell yea!” to my journey and an even bigger “FUCK THIS SHIT!” to anything and anyone that’s tried to interfere with my peace of mind.
I’ve been through hell and back, then revisited it, lingered for a while, and fought my ass off to leave hell again with no plans of returning. I’m at peace now. I’m free.
This blog post is a journal entry that I wrote on August 31, 2022. I knew right away that I wanted to share it raw and unedited as soon as I put my pen down. It felt overwhelming right in the most beautiful way. It’s just been a busy month for me so it took a while. (I’m hoping to get back to my weekly posting schedule very, very soon though!)
Here it is:
"For the first time in my life, I don’t have any enemies, abusers, one-sided relationships or jealousy. I have strong supportive sisterhoods, a loving boyfriend who doesn’t stress me in the least bit, and things finally feel good between my mother and I.
No one is using me, hurting me, or draining me, and I’m not doing those things to anyone else. I am loving fully from a place of compassion, deep healing, and self-respect. In return, I’m receiving unconditional love, peace, inspiration, and motivation from people who have put the work in to heal too.
I am grateful.
The feeling of love constantly rushing in and out of me can be overwhelming though. I am still adjusting to it. But I am so very grateful to be in this position.
For the first time in my life, I am not worried about money. I appreciate what I have and I have faith that more is coming to me.
I have faith that I am actively attracting a life of abundance; one that will overflow my cup, allow me to share, and enable me to work less, have fun with my work, and enjoy more luxuries and freedom. I am the most comfortable with money I have ever been and I am grateful.
For the first time in my life, I am following my heart and truly allowing my intuition to lead me. I am present, refusing to rush, but also refusing to fall victim to stagnance and stuckness. I am simply enjoying my journey. Time is precious and I simply cannot waste it on worrying, fearing, or shrinking into self-pity.
For the first time in my life, my happiness isn’t dependent upon someone else and my emotions are not a burden. I am grateful for every time I was cast aside and heartbroken because each of those moments brought me to this place of unconditional self-love and constant evolution.
I am fearless.
For the first time in my life, I know that I am in control of my own energy and I’ve taken full responsibility for my healing.
I am victorious in every way.
For the first time in my life, I am the boss of my existence, yet I surrender to the divine. I spent so many years trapped in the same hell on repeat. But I’m grateful to have finally learned that shit aint for me.
I am free. For once in my life, I am free."
YOU, my dear reader, can set yourself free too. I truly wish that for you...I guess this is a good place to remind you that I'm a Women's Empowerment and Mindset Coach and I can help you overcome your past in order to live freely and authentically.
You can learn about my Be Your Own Hero Method for setting healthy boundaries here.
I couldn’t help myself. Here’s a journal prompt: Write yourself a self-love letter to celebrate how far you’ve come, you beautiful badass!